We are staying in our current location. Its kinda a bittersweet thing for me though. When we approached the higher ups in early June of this year I couldn't get my ass out of here fast enough. As a matter of fact, none of us could. We had everything in order already. House plan picked (yes, we are crazy, we were going to build), an area for a lot, the type of vehicle we were going to buy to help with our communting issue. We did work around the yard and house to pretty it up, started packing and sorting toys to lighten the load. And the garbage we threw out!
Long story short, I am content to stay here now for two reasons. Its best for DH. To many changes at once would not be good for him. At least at the end of the day he comes home to home, or at least what's been our home for the last two years. And his main support and best buddy lives only an hour away and is here at the drop of a hat whenever we need him. Also, this is a good place for my kids to grow up. What about me? Well, I'm a pretty adaptable kind of girl and I have to say that I do have a couple of very good friends in town now so its not like I have nothing.
Through our struggle with DH's PTSD I think we've both changed. For the better. We have both become stronger. DH has always been a bit of a pushover. Not anymore. While he is still corgial when need be, he doesn't have much tolerance for BS. In the past there have been a lot of times when he has wanted to express an opinion and hasn't, he will now whether you like it or not. And the trust issue. Its a real small circle. I wouldn't even call it a circle, more like a triangle.
So, even though we haven't moved we are definitely ready to start fresh. DH and I have weathered a huge storm and we came out good. I've been told by more than one person that they couldn't have done what I did. Although there are times when I felt I did nothing for him, I guess I did because we're still together and not just for our kids.
So, here's to another new adventure.
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