TRAGIC LOSS

In January, my families worst nightmare came true.

After a long struggle with drugs, my baby sister passed away. I want point out though that she did NOT overdose. While there were drugs in her system and she was a user, her body just couldn't do it anymore and her lungs stopped working. They say that she just got tired and fell asleep and stopped breathing.

Its been a rough 8 months. I think I spent the first on the couch wrapped in a blanket. How I functioned is suprising. Its amazing what your children will make you do when you just want to curl up and die.

We went into full swing with hockey with tournaments every weekend and I even managed to make a huge contribution to our own tournament hosted in Killarney.

I made huge realizations about the people in our lives. Once & for all we realized who was there for us and who wasn't. Not only was CTP still dealing with the PTSD but now I had my own major issue.

While there isn't a day I don't miss my baby sister I do realize that she is in a better place. While I always hoped that one day she would wake up and realize that rehab was what she needed at least I know now that she isn't hurting anymore cause really, that's exactly what she was doing and instead of getting help in different ways, her disease (yes, addiction is a disease, it is not a choice. Just putting that out there for all you narrow minded ingorant assholes out there) had her turn to drugs.

With Nancy's passing I reconnected with some of her dearest childhood friends whom have been a wonderful support to me. A couple months later a young man that Nancy was friends with lost his fight with cancer. Another tragic loss.

Anyways, it has taken me a long time to get myself back together and well here I am again.

Stay tuned because there are some real exciting changes about to happen for us and we can't WAIT to share them.